Before I die I want to…

…pay off my student loan and burn the letter

…let myself rest without guilt

…watch the sunrise from primrose hill in winter

…learn to whistle properly

…make peace with dad

…spend a whole sunday in regent's park doing nothing

…get a proper pint in every borough

…tell the upstairs neighbour i love their music

…marry my french boyfriend

…get the perfect sourdough

…be wrong out loud

…swim with all my clothes on at least once

…have one proper conversation with my mum

…speak french well enough to argue in it

…stop checking my phone in bed

…name a pigeon and stick with it

…ride every line on the tube in one day

…forgive my brother

…love my body before i'm old

…have a baby. one day. maybe.

…sleep under the stars on hampstead heath

…adopt a rescue dog

…walk the entire thames path in one go

…write that letter to my old teacher

…see the northern lights with someone i love

…stop performing being okay

…see a fox on every street in N1

…swim in the heath ponds in december

…stop being scared of the small stuff

…finish my degree (eventually)